A week and a half ago, around 50 pastors and elders in the PCA met in Atlanta. Atlanta is our denominational headquarters, and Presbyterians love meetings. At first this doesn’t seem like it should be news worthy. Then byFaith put out a short article explaining what happened at the meeting:

The meeting had two specific goals: “To discuss charitably and forthrightly the causes for conflicts in the PCA that hamper our ministry and unity.” And to discuss solutions to those conflicts. The meeting was conducted under Chatham House Rules, meaning that “participants are free to use the information received, but neither the identity nor affiliation of the speaker(s), nor that of any other participant may be revealed.”

All of a sudden a lot of people were confused and thought it was odd to have a meeting that was off the record. People started writing about the meeting. Saying things like:

“Secret meetings which invite a selected few will not bring unity to the PCA.”

“Denomination-wide yet unannounced and discriminate meetings of this nature are contrary to the intentional character of presbyterian government. This kind of thing should be discussed in the prescribed venues of presbyteries and General Assembly.”

“Give them a royal imprimatur joined with a British accent and the PCA’s leaders are off to the races. Never mind that it’s lipstick on a pig, the ecclesiastical equivalent of “What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas.” They’re the “Chatham House Rules” after all and, if they’re good enough for royalty, they’re more-than-sufficient to assuage the guilty consciences of bounderish Presbyterians.”

“‘Denominational leaders’? What was this, a conclave of bishops in the PCA?”

“The rest of us out here among the Great Unwashed get to know what was said (according to official denominational reporting, of course) but not who said it.”

Many people are really upset about this meeting, and when I first heard about it so was I, but I have to confess the real reason that made me mad wasn’t because there was such a meeting or because it was private. I must admit my reasons for being angry at this meeting are far less mature, and I think there are others in the PCA that share my reasoning.

I was angry about this meeting because I wasn’t invited. I want to be considered influential, and a leader in our denomination. I want to go to a meeting and know that other people see me as important. I wanted to go to that meeting so that at some point I could stand up and say something so thoughtfully orthodox, and at the same time so pastoral that men like Roy Taylor would swoon. The reason I’m angry is because I want to be considered part of the inner circle (even if it’s a circle that only exists in my head).

Honestly a lot of my frustration with this meeting makes me feel like I’m back in High school. This kind of thing makes me want to camp out in my mom’s backyard and read S. E. Hinton with the aim of developing a persecution complex. Yet, we aren’t in High school, and I wonder how many of us “Outsiders” would be as angry if we had been invited. Even more to the point, my anger about this meeting shows me how easy it is to seek the approval of men over that of God. There might be valid reasons for being upset about what happened at this meeting, but that is not why I’m angry, and I don’t think that I’m alone in having this problem.

Side note – Vintage 73 has been quiet during the holidays, but as we move toward General Assembly, I think we will begin to see more and more activity.